Zach

This past week has been kind of a struggle for me.  I think I've finally entered the stage of grief where I'm kind of angry.  Angry at him, angry at me, angry at others, angry at my other blog...  This did not mix well with a mysterious gain of one pound this week. Nonetheless I literally woke up one morning after wrestling with all of these things and my head was clear and I was thinking these words: I choose to go forward.

 I really do think that things come to us just when we need them (ok, most of the time) and so I suppose that it was no coincidence that I read a blog post, Thoughts on Vegans, by a local musician, Zach.  While Zach and I have never actually met we travel in a few of the same circles of art and music shows and festivals so I've had the good fortune to hear him perform many times.  So I guess it's not surprising that after reading his blog that a song that he wrote came to mind.

The song is called "Be" and some of the lyrics are 'Be the change that you want to see, Only you can be what you want to be.'  I know that this song has a much broader and nobler scope than weight loss but it is a message that inspires me and I hope it will inspire you too.

In case the video won't load, here's a link to it on YouTube.

The Scale!

As of today I have lost 70 pounds!!!  

That is all. :)

Perspective

In 1997 I became a small business owner.  Specifically, I opened a catering business with my good friend, the aforementioned Onion Breath.

Today I had to email a long-time client to let him know that I wouldn't be able to cater his lunches after July because the next phase of my life is beginning and this one is ending.  If you had asked me where I'd be 16 years later, I would have truly had no clue.  But I can guarantee that even though it's rocky at times, that there's no place that I'd rather be right here and right now rather than in this very place.  I don't have a job (yet).  I'm not at my goal weight (yet).  But things are heading in the right direction.  And I don't mean to be sad, but, if only he who his cheering me on from beyond were here in the flesh it would be a complete little slice of heaven.  Nonetheless, I will carry on and recognize that things are pretty good the way they are.

11.6!

Not much to say today, just wanted to say that I'm down from 16.4 to 11.6 to reach my first mini goal!  And to think I was having nightmares all night that I was going to weigh myself and find out that I hadn't lost any weight or had even gained some.

It's a pretty good day! :)